I was in 7th or 8th grade around the time Brandy’s BEST ALBUM EVER; “Never Say Never” came out. I promise I listened to that album everyday through middle school! Absolutely LOVED it!
But as much as I loved that entire “Never Say Never” album, there was only one song I felt I related to. There was one song that made me feel like I wasn’t alone. It wasn’t one of Brandy’s biggest hits, but “Top of The World” was MY anthem!
When I heard Brandy sing:
Some people say that I’m not the same girl
They say I think that I’m in my own world
What makes them think that I have changed
A little dough cannot erase my problems
Me like you I have to try and solve them
Yes everything is quite the same
I’m just trying to be me
Doing what I got to do
Some people think that I’m Just sittin on top of the world
Always in someone’s eye so many questions ‘why?’
How is it to be down with me with me?
Afraid to express myself always me and someone else
I need to be free but it’s not that easy
I thought me and her were gonna meet and become best friends! Lol
You see at this point of my life, my Dad’s ministry was beginning to take off. I moved from the city and neighborhood I’d lived in since the day I was born to a new city about 20 minutes away, into a house about 4x the size of the old one.
Yes, we were “movin’ on up,” as some might say! But moving up meant leaving everything I’d ever known. No longer would my best friend since Kindergarten live two houses down. No longer could my brother and me play with our friends in the neighborhood, or sneak down the street to the Candy Lady’s house to buy a giant pickle and some Now-and-Laters (Shh! Don’t tell my mom!). No longer could we ride our bikes down the alley playing cops and robbers…matter fact, we no longer even had an alley! We now had an acre of grass and trees behind us! No other houses were even next to ours!
I can’t remember exactly how the transition from having the same friends from birth-to-12yrs to being in a new city and knowing no one went, but I distinctly remember identifying with this Brandy song!
Based on things my peers had said, comments I’d heard in passing and the new life I was experiencing, I remember feeling like everyone thought I was rich and had the perfect life.
Fast-forward 13 years
and here I sit tonight feeling the same sentiments. I realize that people think I have a perfect and amazing life. I still know people to this day, who refer to me as “rich,” “a mogul,” and all sorts of things, that I totally know are not true about me.
No matter how much I’ve tried to convince people differently, for the past 13 years, the truth is: I have yet to successfully convince many people, if any at all, that their perceptions of me are wrong. At this point in life, I’m pretty much sure, you can’t control the way people perceive you. Even if you tell them something’s not true, until they think it’s not true, they still won’t believe you. *Shrugs shoulders* Tis life!
What I have learned is, no matter how “together” my life seems, no matter how many gifts and talents I seem to possess or how many people know my family or me, one fact remains…none of that stuff matters and none of it satisfies!
The bottom line? My existence is pointless without HIM.
The second bottom line? I’m incomplete without HIM.
(1 Corinthians 1:26-31)
The third bottom line? I’m giving it ALL to HIM!
We can be surprised together when “giving it ALL” leads me to a place neither of us expected!
On second thought, how about you join me and we enjoy our rides together? Let’s GO!!!!!!
Feel free to comment or share if you’d like! And read those scriptures up there! They’re DOPE!